I have a red lipstick which I haven’t worn till now.
I have a red lipstick which looks beautiful on others but I haven’t worn till now.
I have a red lipstick which others said I am too young for and so I haven’t worn till now.
I have a red lipstick which then was said I am too old for it and so would not look good on me.
And so today as I am older than yesterday and younger than tomorrow,
I said, this is the best day to wear it and so it adorns my lips like this.
The years of listening to everyone around you telling how to behave like a good girl has had its tolls. In my mind I am this free bird who has the freedom of doing what she wants. But in reality there are chains of behaviourial tokens which I got in being a good girl.
Make up, hair color, short dresses, late night outings, talking to boys, going out with friends were just some of the many things which was the scale to judge my character.
So I did nothing. Or if I did, that was with a fear of doing a crime which I might get punished upon any second.
I didn’t want to give a reason for anybody to judge my character. Because my elders know better than me right. There will be lots who might point out my wrongdoings to my parents and then what would happen to my life. With these constant thoughts in my mind, I became someone who had an inferiority complex the size of an ocean, someone second guessing every decision they took.
Then at some point in life, I started changing. It would be hard to pin point when. Looking back it should be sometime after I became a mother. I realized this is not what I want my daughters to think. Unless I can act on what I want in life, how can I show them the confidence of making mistakes, of learning from them.
So today I wear the red lipstick, which for me is a huge act of confidence, not bothered whether it suits me or not because it makes me happy and confident.
What is that one thing in life which you haven’t done till now and would like to act on it now?
Good one dear.. Every girl must be go through this.. i am not changing still now, i also have a hidden mind under my heart to change but…
One day something would help you to change if you still want to…I love the person you are now and if want to make any changes, go for it💪
Oh.. That’s so wonderful, Paru. 👏👏👏
I can relate, probably every woman can relate too.
You look pretty in your red 🍒 lipstick 💄
Well done & keep on writing & sharing!!
Aww, thanks a lot Honey. Keep on encouraging and I will keep on writing 🥰🥰🥰
Sure thing. I’m always available for free motivation. 🙂
Motivate me too at times. 😂
Could relate to it as a daughter and a mother.